Entry # 11

Luke 14 vs 27,28…..And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me cannot be my disciple. For which of you, intending to build a tower, sitteth not down first, and counteth the cost, whether he hath sufficient to finish it ?

Can you finish what you have started?

Letting Go

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Mission Statement:

1. Read the laws.
2. Study the laws.
3. Apply them to our lives.

 

 

This is the mission statement that my husband reinforces with our family on a daily basis. I repeat this mission a lot throughout my days; however, there have been more days recently where this mission has been put to the test in my life.

Before my husband and I came into the truth, I had been married previously and had two children from that marriage. Through a divorce and various other situations the most High has brought me through, all I had left were my two children. I had the encouragement from a long, tall, lean man with a voice of a lion, who thankfully, ended up being my lord, and after we married, we had one other child together, along with his two children. As the most High began to reveal his truth to my lord, through Israel United in Christ, that we are the true Israelites of the Bible, we had already been married five years, and had been raising all five young children together.

 

So, after coming into the truth, my husband began implementing sound doctrine from Israel United in Christ and many things in our lives started to become more set in order. I had started reading more, asking more questions, receiving more correctionJ, and seeing how our lives in captivity really are.

 

Ephesians 5:22-24, Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the savior of the body. Therefore as the church is subject to Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.

 

My lord emphasized to me that my children had to go live with their father because they were no longer listening to the instruction concerning God’s laws. But, they rebelled and their father began making dangerous and life threatening accusations against my lord.

Wisdom of Solomon 4:6, For children begotten of unlawful beds are witnesses of wickedness against their parents in their trial.

 

As I began further reading the word, I learned lessons on how a real woman submits to the laws of God. I read it again. And I listened again. Read. Listened. Read some more. Listened some more. And thought. And thought again. Through the laws of the most High that was taught to me by my husband, I began to understand how much emphasis America has placed on the mother or wife being the one who knows best what her children need and how to get it done. How would things be when I gave my other two children over to their biological father? What would people think of me? Is that the right thing to do?

Ecclesiasticus/ Sirach 26:26 A woman that honoreth her husband shall be judged wise of all; but she that dishonoreth him in her pride shall be counted ungodly of all.

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So, I found myself studying the word concerning my role as a woman, wife, and mother. I asked my husband a lot of questions, took notes during Sabbath and daily classes from Israel United in Christ, and I began to pick up the Bible Concordance and Dictionary. I started looking up words like, ‘father’, ‘mother’, ‘wife’, ‘woman’, and the infamous word, ‘submit’ J. I noticed that the more I studied and received instruction from my lord for the family, that the more my life was changing forever. And I finally began to understand how much of a hold Christianity had on me.

1^st Tim. 3:11, Even so must their wives be grave, not slanderers, sober, faithful in all things.

Ok, so here we go….

No word yet…

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Sunday evening in September…Time to pick up the kids…or so I thought. We drive up to the place of exchange. I go into the office as usual. Sign in. Speak greetings and wait. Strange looks, low talking about trivial business. One of the receptionists can’t seem to remember to finish her thoughts, but goes to the back to get the manager. One of the managers comes to the waiting area with a surprised look on her face and an envelope in her hand. Then, it changed to shame (or was it mockery?). “I’m so sorry, but the children aren’t here. No one told you?” “Told me what?” I asked, still waiting to see what kind of game my ex was playing this time. “Um, well, the custodial modifications were already signed by the court. I thought it was communicated to you already when you dropped the kids off on Friday.” (She is turning even redder by this time. Does she think I’m about to act like a Negro?) “No, none of that was communicated to me. But, you know…that’s alright. It would have been nice to know that, but everything will work out the way it’s supposed to.” (Yes, those words did actually come out of my mouth!) I smiled, took the envelope with the finalized papers, thanked them for their service, and walked back to the truck.

1^st Corinthians 10:13, There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

As my lord turns us around to go back home, reality crashes on me. He’s speaking comforting words mixed in with rebuke and prophecies of the malicious acts of others and their retribution. Tears catch hold of my eyes and graciously fall down; but, honestly, my heart is ok. Scriptures literally fill my head and understanding follows. Thankfulness is actually in my heart. Is this real? Shouldn’t I be feeling anger? Bitterness? Disbelief that I couldn’t hug, kiss, comfort, and edify my children in person for one last time before letting them go according to my heart’s desire? But, I was really OK. I was thankful that I was allowed to go through it. How do I know the plans the Lord has for my life or that of any of my children? Where is my faith really if I haven’t applied His laws to my own situations? Not out of service to man, but really out of my faith in Christ and the reasons why He died for me in my sins?

Philippians 3:8-9, (8) Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ, (9) And be found in him, not having mine own righteousness, which is of the law, but that which is through the faith of Christ, the righteousness which is of God by faith:

After many weeks of not seeing the children, (but being able to speak with them, all praises!), I have found that by submitting myself to the words of knowledge from my lord through the laws of the most High, things aren’t frightening as my previous rebellion told me it would be. I have begun to appreciate the order and structure that was established for the Israelite woman and the leadership role of the Israelite man through my lord. I have learned from my lord that running from my problems will never make them go away, but turning and facing them will always bring challenges that test my faith.

Ecclesiasticus/ Sirach 2:1-2, (1) My son, if thou come to serve the Lord, prepare thy soul for temptation. (2) Set thy heart aright, and constantly endure, and make not haste in time of trouble.

 

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I pray that this part of my life edifies and exhorts the body through the faith in Christ.

Shalom from your Sister,

Sarah (from the House of Marataza Gabar)